Every Battle Can Not Be Won

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The idea with this segment “Soul Searching Through Writing” is to share words written in the moment as I felt them, then or now. Share writings from my journals without any filter. Words I spent time writing to find whatever I was looking for or still looking for. In no particular order or category.

September 30th 2016:

There comes a moment when my emotions challenge my every movement and rock the ground I walk on. I then lose all hope and find myself questioning my existence. In the whirlwind of life, fear is present and the mind becomes fragile by the tales of life’s despairs.

As my emotions take the best of me, I’m begging for the strength to carry on. To find the will to face obstacles put in front of me. Yet, during my downswings I have faith that there is meaning even when meaningless acts are thrown at my direction. Then challenging my indecisive mind.

I search for perseverance on the journey of self-discovery. I pray that fear will serve as a guideline rather than a diminisher for all hope. But in fearful moments I witness my self-destructed ways poisoning my sources of merriment. Thus feeding every negative seed ever planted and groomed.

But in fairness of living, I understand every battle cannot be won. Still, I seek victory in life’s battlefields and the confidence to accept while being. And despite hardship I hope that I am able to carry on with life as it holds my hand, guide me to truthfulness and usher its wonders. For in all sensibility, I wish to exist in the uniqueness that is me.

To do so, I battle the struggles in the now and emotions of the past in order to conquest the future. My future.

 

– A.B.

Alter Your Reality

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The idea is to share words written in the moment as I felt them, then or now. Share writings from my journals without any filter. Words I spent time writing to find whatever I was looking for or still looking for. In no particular order or category.

August 9, 2014

Your mind chooses to see or believe what it wants! And sometimes when your dreams and aspirations are in conflict with reality, you create obstacles, instead, start by changing your reality. For what you’ll eventually discover is that anything is possible, and that the key in creating the life you want for yourself is believing that there are no limitations. All in all, believing that anything is possible means altering your reality to create numerous of possibilities. However, it will take faith, action and determination. Empower yourself rather then limiting yourself!

 

-A.B.-

 

I Need To…

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The idea is to share words written in the moment as I felt them, then or now. Share writings from my journals without any filter. Words I spent time writing to find whatever I was looking for or still looking for. In no particular order or category.

November 11, 2014

Why rush it all? 

Right now I do not know what my next journey will be. Or what the future holds for me. 
I’ve been confused and stressed out for a very long time; all with good reason, I guess.
Maybe it’s a good thing that I don’t have it all planned or figured out, from A-Z. 

I need to leave it up to the universe.
I need to shift my mind to positive thinking. 
I need to believe in myself. Believe I’m capable. 
I need to be thankful for what I have and managed to achieve so far in my life.

I need to…

Relax / Be grateful / Be positive


-A.B.-

In Life, What Do We Know With Absolute Certainty?

There are certain things and aspects of creation we believe to be true or false mainly because it’s been proven through science and history. As well as through the nature of us human beings, our behaviour and experiences. Through the course of life we learn, experience and evolve as human beings.
But what do we know with absolute certainty?

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All Is Not Lost

 

soulsearching

The idea is to share words written in the moment as I felt them, then or now. Share writings from my journals without any filter. Words I spent time writing to find whatever I was looking for or still looking for. In no particular order or category.

March 8, 2015:

It’s been three months since I was forced to navigate myself through darkness. I walk along side with my demons whilst bathing in self-doubt, fear and despair. Sleep is my escape. Food my prescription and abuse. All to not feel. Tears are my proof of pain as I release it all out. Despite every heavy moment, I redeem myself with positive reinforcement, my mind as my weapon. My heart as the source of all good and pure. Hope reinsures that all is not lost.

-A.B.-