A lot has changed since fall 2016. I’m one child richer, I have more gray hair (+ extra bodyweight!) and more exhausted than ever. I could sugarcoat everything and say life is just GREAT (I’m on cloud nine, 24/7), I’m great and everything is great! I could say, I don’t miss sleep or the idea of just having the sofa to myself, with no child clinging to me. I could say a lot of things.
But in all honesty, I haven’t been able to keep up with everything (hence my absence here). I mean, what human being can?! Sometimes, something’s gotta give. I’ve tried keeping up several times but failed miserably. Between sleepless nights, cries, worries and tantrums, I’m in awe that we (mothers/parents) manage to raise (hopefully functioning) human beings.
Motherhood is the best and most challenging thing that has happened to me. The rewards are endless!
After almost 10 months, my maternal leave is now over. It’s the end of an era; I’m out of the bubble and back to socializing with other grown ups. And back to my night shift routine. I’m back to a place where my entire day, time and attention doesn’t involve diaper change, spit-ups and worrying. I’m back to owning my boobs.
Nothing is 100% without fault. I love my children. My family. I enjoy different aspects of my responsibilities and life.
But life with kids can be challenging and chaotic at times. Therefor, being back to (night) work gives me a break and time out.
A break from chaos. Time to focus on my own thoughts and creativity. And an opportunity to regroup, so when I go back to the role of “mommy” I’m calm and collected with my sanity intact.